I was pissed, hurt, and throwing up. My pathetic existence lingered throughout the house as my soon to be Ex was out seeking the attention of other guys. I loved her and wanted to make shit work no matter the cost of my dignity. She was an inconsiderate bitch, and I became a jealous fuck who got too involved in the relationship. This would be my life for a good week until depression started to fade little by little before I could start functioning again. The weight loss was awesome though, I had plateaued in the gym and this was the magic bullet I needed to continue down the road to complete physical attractiveness, so something good did come out of this other than the obvious lesson. Riddled with bullshit and pain, I searched for answers to heal on google. Yes I am that guy who googles every god damn thing I am not sure of. First I was searching for "Getting your ex back", but that would eventually lead me down a spiral of wisdom to where people who had their shit together would point you to "Fucking forget about her and move on." The only fuckers who were interested in getting their ex back were at the same stage as me, pleading for advice, for a magic bullet.
Somehow through all this searching, I ended up on a PUA site, which stands for Pick up artists. The info on this shit is great, not just for picking up women, but how to deal with their bullshit and games. You see I somehow snatch a girl with ease, but then I make a few cardinal mistakes when I get too deep, causing the attraction to slow die months after we hook up. Was that the sole reason we didn't work? Probably not, I didn't like her stupid fucking hobbies which was the drama mill on a chat program called IMVU, and I damn sure didn't like her friends who really treated friendship like it was truly just a 10 letter word. Plus I always had a feeling she had a bullpin with a few guys in it, waiting for the chance for me to slip up and get pulled out of the big game. Well that was a correct assumption because I got replaced pretty damn quickly LOL. So if you fast forward through all the sappy shit, my school grades suffered a bit, I lost weight (hurray!), and I went on a binge and bought a new car.
So the why the fuck did I name my blog, "On the road to revenge?" I don't fucking know, I feel like my Ex and I are Cold Warring it up with all the stupid shit we put on our IMVU and Skype accounts. "He makes me smile like no other.",and some other dumb shit about how he is a positive impact on her life. I put shit about how awesome my weekend is, making her wonder who I am fucking, which at the time is nobody. She pulled the friend card on me and only bothered messaging me after she hooked up with some dude, seeing what my reaction was. I just told her how fucking awesome my Christmas tree was and logged out so I could masterbate my emotions into a dirty sock.
After a while you finally put shit into perspective, and turn jealousy into anger to finally indifference, which comes and goes because a piece of you wants what you once had, a foreign voice on skype moaning and cumming for you a couple times, man that shit drove me crazy. But its gone now and she's still stuck in the digital dating world with a guy who just dropped his balls just recently. Have fun with that woman. As for me, I've been taking advantage of going outside and meeting new women. I have a couple girls I'm talking to, K-Closing one (Kissing) and N-closing the other (Getting the number and date). I'm well on my way to F-closing (Do you have to ask?).
The lessons that could be learned from this is just..well to many fucking lessons. If you see too many red flags in a man or woman, do yourself a favor and slowly back away. And masterbating with a sock to catch your load is always a good idea. Oh yeah keep your options open and don't settle for the first girl who likes you, that way you can pick out of the litter which one suits you the best. Just be honest about this shit, most women will respect you and know when to lay the cards down so obviously that you wont be blindsided.
The best revenge I think is coming back with a bang, not really fucking people over though, that's what people who have nothing going for them do to make themselves feel better.
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